Improvement.

Failure can be interpreted a lot of ways, but it really sucks when they all apply to you; and how appropriate that Crash and Burn would be playing right now, but unfortunately the part of not being alone kinda doesn't apply, because everything that's wrong is kinda only up to me, but it's always nice to have support. I just need to find some.

I used to wish I was rich, wish I was talented, wish I was meant for something bigger than everything in my life, and now I'm kinda tired of wishing. So guess what? Time to screw everything else that's not important in my life and concentrate on what is, because I need to get my priorities straight. It'd probably be in my best interest to toss my laptop out of the window, but I think that'd probably be more hurt than help.

I have other problems, but if I were to elaborate on it I'd probably draft this post too, and I've been doing that a lot recently, so I guess I'll actually post something.

Big surprise that tomorrow's probably an "Ignore Chris Day". and I might as well acknowledge this, because...well....it's kinda hard not to? but yeah. If you read this, and I honestly have no idea if you will or not, I'm sorry I'm not going with you, but I'm not sorry I said no, because I like to think I'm allowed that choice, yeah? And what everyone says is right, you deserve someone better :] I'm pretty sure I've told you that before, but yeah....I'm pretty sure this ordeal will probably change things, especially with people like Alice who hate me right now, but it doesn't on my side, so do what you like.

On the bright side a hecka lot of birthday's coming up :] which means lots of money spending. Oh well, friends are worth it :] esp. the keepers. hopefully you know who you are. and if you don't....well......you are (:

Time for bed now. g'night.

-Chris

p.s. Alice, if you're reading this. If you're still looking for your i-pod, seriously, ask Improta if you haven't already.