You Have No Idea

It's a weird feeling when you're worried sick about something. You can't concentrate much, your stomach feels like you just went through Six-Flags a few times, and you just want to bunch in a corner and watch the world pass by.

It's different each time too. If you're worrying about a friend, you space out, stare at the phone wondering to call, stare at AIM, hoping that they sign on. The worst is when you feel like you can't do anything to help.

Then there's worry about family, whether it's parents, or divorce, or anything. You can't do much, because someone's yelling, or else we wouldn't be having problems, and there's still that knot in your stomach.

There's worry about yourself too. Not the whole anxiety you get when you see you have a C+ on ABI, or when you find you have a big test tomorrow and it's already 2am. It's hard to describe, but anyone who's been there knows what I mean.

You know what else is weird? Your emotions can get you sick. If you're seriously in depression or worried, it can degrade your body. I really don't get this though, because if you're worrying about something, the last thing you want to do is have to worry about your personal health. but now that I think about it, maybe your body's telling you to get up and move on with it, and it's going to hurt itself until you decide to get your head back on straight, because that's the only way you'll listen to it.

Well tomorrow's an away meet against the rich people of Sage Hill. (: We're going to Corona Del Mar though, and according to the almighty Google, Corona Del Mar High is really close to UCI, but with traffic it might take a while to get there :/ oh well. sleeping time (: and did you know Sage Hill is in the city of Newport Beach? o.o

oh well. that's all for now.

-Chris