50%

That's how many of my calls I pick up. No lie.....I pick up 50% of the time. If you'd like, I'll show you the next time I see you.

Now that I think about it, maybe my mom's doing me a favor, pulling me away from connections and communication and just making me sit down for a sec and just stopping. Good stuff. Ignore some calls someday. Put your AIM on invisible and just keep to yourself sometime. It's hard, but you feel so good later. Like it's just you, maybe your family, but just you have control over everything, and you decide who goes in and out of your life.

I make it seem so hard to just not talk to your friends, but it kinda is. Then I look at my family, and my relationship with God, and I'm like. How much time have I been tending with them? Unfortunately not as much as I'd like. Sigh. I love worship though ^^ I don't know. I just feel like, after everything, if I don't listen to the lesson, if I don't understand what they're trying to get me to understand. I'm still there, I'm singing, and it's for Him, and I try to make it more than words, more than a melody. I should really pray more though. but I think God has an easier way of communicating with me, but it's still important.

Today in church, we talked about Gidian, and how he, and no one else, can live up to God's standards, and we somehow got to the subject of grace. Grace is amazing stuff isn't it? (: God just gives us 10 simple rules to live by, and we can't do it for more than 5 or 10 minutes that we're awake.

That 5th commandment though. It's hard (: For Catholic's it's the 4th, but it's all the same. "Honor thy Father and Mother." 5 words. and about 5,000,000,000 mess-ups every day.

but what about sisters? Honestly being a big brother is hard. You're the example, you're the guilty one, you're the protector, you're the punching bag, you're the better one, you're the smarter one, you're the older one. and it sucks because honestly sometimes I just wanna disown her and not have anything to do with her, or any of them. but in the end, they're all you've got. Your friends can move on, or move away, they can die, they can hate you. but in the end, almost always, your family's going to be there, and yes they can die, but unless they are...they're not going to leave you.

Hope you're not too depressed by now [x I could write more on this, but I'd better save it or else i won't have any followers anymore.

So today was BOOORRRRIIINNNGGGGGG D:

Saw some of my friends at church I haven't seen in a while :D talked to Emily (: who none of you know, and then went to Souplantation as usual, and then I napped for about 4 hours. xD cuz my mom wouldn't let me out of the house. We watched Harry Potter 5 at 7. and I read Fast Food Nation from 9:30-10 >:] so I get to be on the computer.

LOL my sister is in love with Harry Potter now, but before she hated everything about them xD so go figure.

NO RESERVATIONS IS A FREAKING GOOD MOVIE :DDDDD go watch it (:

oh gosh --x mom's getting on my nerves again. I'm really bad at this

g'night~

-Chris

p.s. Welcome back Sarah.

p.p.s. My mom just took my phone --x