Warm Blueberry Muffins.

Vanessa's blog is making me feel poetic, but I can't stay on the computer very long. :[

I'll write tomorrow.

Crescendo

Hehe yups :] I still remember some stuff from piano. I really have to start that again.

Anyways, hopefully you know it was my birthday today, and if not...stop following my blog --x just kidding :] but yeah. Today was really weird, but it was a good day, so that's fine.

FIRST AND FOREMOST

I'd like to give a HUGE thank you and I love you to Alice, Ashley, Angela, Mary, Sarah, and Pauline (in chronological order) for your notes/cards/art/love. I know this sounds really mushy and corny or whatever, but it seriously made me feel really special ^-^ Seriously, I know we all have like no time anymore, but the fact you took some time to write something out is touching.

v^-^

(and to Isabel and Archie, don't worry if you're out of paper/ink/both, it's the thought that counts (: )

So, besides those lovely people up there ^, school was pretty normal, Red X cabinet, or some of it, sang to me, and I did well on my chem test :]

Hall kinda chewed me out in 2nd period today --x and evidently I have the same birthday as her mother...but whatever.

Another downer was not being able to swim, cuz I forgot my suit (stupidstupidstupid) D; but yeah :] I think Paul hates me --x like he really does. I think I'd better stay away from his girls, during practice anyway, or how about just whenever he's around.

Life's not perfect, but it can do pretty darn well sometimes.

-Chris

p.s. Sorry Ralph. I owe you food yeah? (:

"Hey they're hot" "What? You mean those guys?"

So the title and many more things are the reasons why I'm shunning Alice and Opal and Vince and Avery and Ethan and Avi tomorrow. shameeeee ): it was fun.

So anyway, today was Avi Bagla's Birthday :] My indian man of the islands ;D except India doesn't have islands, so I'm kinda curious how that works. Anyways, my Blogger isn't going to a new line when I reach the end of the box, it's just going right. which is kinda bothering me --x cuz yeah. but I don't want to keep making new paragraphs, so I don't know what I'm going to do :/

BACK TO AVI :] I hope you had a great birthday even though you had to work on musical and you

got caught flirting with Opal in Chem (;

There's more in your card, but I thought I'd give you a shout-out :D and I even wrote it in purple, so you're special.

Sorry you didn't get giant balloons and whatnot, but you're not a girl (x and we guys don't get stuff like that. Oh well. The Cons of not having to give birth to children and not having gender prejudice :/ it's tough man.

You know what? I want to get you a giant red ball. but I have no idea where to buy one :/ darn.

Well I'm 16 now. hooray. actually, I'm probably still 15, but I don't know when I got pulled out of my mom's tummy, so let's just assume like 7am or something [x

Yesterday was fun. The meet was wonderful, Huntington Beach was wonderful, and I got to bond with Lydia and Steph :] so that was good. I hate getting attached to seniors though! because I miss them that much more when they leave ): stupid Seniors. I love some of you.

I got to see Wendy today too! :D I lot of you don't know her, but she's wonderful :] She's up there with Yeuting. but anyways. you don't know about that either (;

Thanks to Ashley and Angela for midnight calls ^-^

-Chris

p.s. sorry about the weird text. Blogger's being weird.

You Have No Idea

It's a weird feeling when you're worried sick about something. You can't concentrate much, your stomach feels like you just went through Six-Flags a few times, and you just want to bunch in a corner and watch the world pass by.

It's different each time too. If you're worrying about a friend, you space out, stare at the phone wondering to call, stare at AIM, hoping that they sign on. The worst is when you feel like you can't do anything to help.

Then there's worry about family, whether it's parents, or divorce, or anything. You can't do much, because someone's yelling, or else we wouldn't be having problems, and there's still that knot in your stomach.

There's worry about yourself too. Not the whole anxiety you get when you see you have a C+ on ABI, or when you find you have a big test tomorrow and it's already 2am. It's hard to describe, but anyone who's been there knows what I mean.

You know what else is weird? Your emotions can get you sick. If you're seriously in depression or worried, it can degrade your body. I really don't get this though, because if you're worrying about something, the last thing you want to do is have to worry about your personal health. but now that I think about it, maybe your body's telling you to get up and move on with it, and it's going to hurt itself until you decide to get your head back on straight, because that's the only way you'll listen to it.

Well tomorrow's an away meet against the rich people of Sage Hill. (: We're going to Corona Del Mar though, and according to the almighty Google, Corona Del Mar High is really close to UCI, but with traffic it might take a while to get there :/ oh well. sleeping time (: and did you know Sage Hill is in the city of Newport Beach? o.o

oh well. that's all for now.

-Chris

Tired of Being Sorry

So Friday was Sadies, and that was alright. Personally I don't really care for dances anyway, so yeah. Congratulations to Archie and Marissa though. and thanks to Archie for changing me to food instead of 8-8:30 registration, because I'm pretty sure I had more fun with food than registration. ^-^

I kinda screwed up my back and leg and foot and knee on the bounce house though --x so that kinda hurt for a while, but it feels better now. Dancing with Avi and Shivie and them was fun :] and I attempted dancing with Charlie xDDD but that didn't work out so well. He's too good for me :]

Special thanks to Angela and Ashley who helped us with cleaning the food store floor and moving all the otter pops into the cooler. [x btw, anyone out there who's planning on having another school dance, you can't put otter-pops in the ice machine, cuz toxin in the plastic can get in the ice, etc. so yeah :]

Thank goodness for Pandora. It makes me happy.

The sister is going away for Spring Break, and I'm afraid I'm going to miss her :/ On the bright side I get to go to Texas to look at colleges. I think that'll be enough to convince me NOT to go to Texas for college [x I seriously am prepared for the worst weather in my life there. Taiwan's pretty bad, but the food and stores and people are worth it ^-^ Texas...isn't, but let's not be judgmental yeah? :] we have enough of that going around.

I'm so glad there's a world outside of Whitney. It's weird how sometimes you think that grades and pissy friends and all that is the end of the world, and you're up 'til 5 in the morning. Sometimes it is, cuz grades are kinda important [x Then you remember you have friends outside school, great people can still go to crap colleges, and that sleep is sometimes more important than studying the book AGAIN.

I wanna do colorguard, and get weird looks, and have people laugh at me for being gay. It looks like fun.

-Chris

Black Licorice Jellybeans

So yesterday was Archie's birthday :] so

HAPPY BIRTHDAY shree tree :]

So evidently she got like 9 cakes. [x May you never be short on cake (:

That'd better not happen on my birthday if I even get anything, cuz then my swim times are gonna go down, and I'm gonna get diabetes :[ diabetes sucks from what I'm told. I like pretty bookmarks though :D and umm cute stuff that I can put in Hannah and my locker :D.....yeah. now I'm gonna get a bajillion bookmarks [x but yeah.

I really like purple :] can you tell?

k let's be serious.

Actually, why bother? because the world's gonna end in 2012 anyway right? :] actually we don't really know. I just wish the Mayans had given us a reason besides the fact that it's just the end of their giant circle stone --x but whatever :]

So, in case you guys don't know, I'm kinda just a little obsessed with Cobra Starship right now (: and if I had one of those playlist things, that's what would be on it. Right now it's "Send My Love to the Dancefloor." "Hot Mess", "The City is at War", and "Good Girls Go Bad" :D def. worth checking out.

I'm really just font and color OCD right now :] which is a good thing, because that means I'm happy. why am I happy. oh well. :D

I should seriously get a case or something for my pikachu collection :D but quite frankly it hasn't grown much recently :[ c'mon guys! get busy. please? just a little? I want more pikachus :[

soooo. this is supposed to be Webdings, but it doesn't look like it :/ oh well. (actually I guess it did work [x so I guess I'll switch it out. cuz Tiff's Birthday is important)

Tiff Liu's birthday is coming up! :D and Sadies' but my shift got changed to 10-10:30 w/o Angela ): even though they said yesterday I'd be working w/ her at registration. oh well :[ I wonder who I'm working with.

Swim went pretty well today :] I got 3rd in 100BR and 200IM, which isn't bad considering I started last in 200IM and I wasn't trying BR :] so yeah. pretty good day. Kathy left me her loving mark on my back though (swim ppl you know what I'm talking about ;]) and Kirstie was being scandy, Maggie was charismatic as usual, Alice was flirting with Ethan as usual, and wrestling in the warmup pool=man bonding :D too bad we couldn't really play in the playground :/ darnicles.

I heart swim :] (since the heart thing messes with the html --x)

-Chris

The Lining is Silver

So today has been a pretty darn good day (:

I really love the CAHSEE (California High School Exit Exam) sorry I just wanted to write it out once. The english was actually harder than I expected, but nothing super difficult. So, sitting with Catherine was fun [x We erased the *This Page is Blank on Purpose* pages and stealthily ate popcorn (; Mrs. Hall was giving me weird looks though [x cuz I just kept pulling out popcorn. Alice was having fun in the back sleeping on the floor with Kevin Zosa back there. I think Catherine was jealous.

Anywayssss, so after that, we went to spanish, and we freaking have another career project IN SPANISH --x which I think is kinda stupid.......but yeah. I think I need to pick a career, but I think I picked a major (: which makes me happy. So then we had the swim meet, and running back to school to get secret buddy gifts, and hot asphalt, OH! AND Opal's cake =D can't forget that.

The meet went really well :D we won, 95-70, and I felt really good for everything, so things are looking up. My 50br is 32.3, 100br is 1:12, and 200IM is 2:42? I think. not sure. but I think I'm gonna have bruised heels because of that ): bleh. Greg came back today too! :D and I'm sure Alice was just peeing her suit in joy, but she didn't show it (; Congrats to Ailien too, asking her mystery Cerritos man [x

My dad bought me boba today (: so that was a nice surprise to come home to.

Archie's Birthday is tomorrow! I haven't done a birthday post in a freaking long time, but I don't think I'll do one, because they're pretty much the same thing as you write in cards, so yeah.

-Chris

p.s. Thanks to everyone who reads and isn't ignoring me :] and thanks to everyone who doesn't read this too.